Monday, June 27, 2011

"dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. but it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. you’re always close enough to touch, but never quite close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart."
I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day, and something reminds you that you wish you had stayed. We can plan for a change in weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind. So I’ll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes. All that I know is I don’t know how to be something you miss.
My heart has been getting heavy, and I don’t know what to say. It seems like everything you do just keeps pushing me away. And everyone keeps telling me you were never worth my time. And when this conversation comes to an end, so will you and I. I’ll end this, and I know it’s for the best. And it won’t be easy knowing you’re with someone else. And I don’t believe that anyone or anything is meant to be, and I pray that I’m not right. And all this time I was just lying to myself. You were such a waste of time.
She prays one day she’ll find someone to need her
"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."
-Bob Marley

"He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you." 
- Bob Marley
He reached for her hand, "I dont' want to lose you." His voice was almost a whisper, she could feel the tears again, and she fought them back. "But you don't want to keep me either, do you?" To that, he had no response.
Do not love me because i love you, love me for loving me.
Prepared for the worst, but praying for the best.
There’s always gonna be evil people in the world who just do negative shit. You just got to kill ‘em with kindness barbs, and they’ll die slow
 – Nicki Minaj

So I’ma bounce back, and I’ma ball out, and everytime you see me I’ma go all out, and I’ma win til the ending.
 – Nicki Minaj

I'm competitive with myself. I always try to push past my own borders.
-Tyra Banks